Masturbation

FREEDOM FROM PORNOGRAPHY

“Day after day my bondage was becoming deeper, my thoughts were perverted and my desires were corrupt. Even after I got married, my heart was not changed.”

Hello, my name is Stephen. I was born and brought up in a Hindu family. My forefathers were temple priests. I was much into yoga, transcendental meditation and idolatry from my child hood. While I was in my 9th class, I watched porn for the first time and I was hooked.

When I was doing my MBBS in medical college, I had a powerful encounter with the Lord! I had seen a vision of Christ and the Lord spoke to me. Where as in the past I was opposing Christianity and Christians, I turned to the Lord with all my heart. I was thrown out of the house (because my parents were Brahmins â hindu priests). Though I was set free from so many things, I was unable to overcome my sexual thoughts. I prayed, fasted, cried and spent sleepless nights. Once, the Lord spoke to me in a very clear way, and I was set free. However, later again I back slid. From then on my journey was a downhill slope. Day after day my bondage was becoming deeper, my thoughts were perverted and my desires were corrupt. Even after I got married, my heart was not changed. Without the knowledge of my wife I would watch porn. Later I would regret and confess to the Lord all that I have done. It has become a confess – sin – confess cycle.

I would take some books on deliverance and go through the prayer and feel now that is it, I am delivered. But again, within a few days, I would fall. I could not share my problem with anybody. I work in a Christian mission hospital in a remote part of India. I attend a local church (there is only one church in my village and they do not do deliverance) where I have not been able to get the word to my edification. I did not know what to do. I started searching the net for any pastor who is in deliverance ministry, and I have sent many mails to many people for prayer. It was a long time until I received my first reply.  A pastor I had contacted,  sent me an encouraging e-mail and he let me know his prayer team was praying for me.

One day when I was searching the net, I came across JesusSettingFree.com, and sent in a prayer request. Within few days I have received a phone call from Pastor Bob. One thing which struck me was that the spirit of homosexuality is behind pornography, [masturbation – A man or woman committing sin with the same sex; their own body].  I was awestruck at this new revelation. I knew what heinous thing I have done. Then the pastor led me in deliverance prayer, and the Spirit of the Lord came upon me over the phone. With deep repentance and longing, I started to pray.  As we were praying, suddenly I felt the presence of the Lord and the burden in my heart was taken away. I knew that I was delivered.  I was also led by the pastor to pray for the baptism of the Holy Ghost and then I was filled with the Holy Spirit and started speaking in tongues.

I thank the Lord and all His true ministers who have been laboring night and day to deliver the people bound in chains. I believe that the Lord is able to keep me through. Praise the Lord.

Stephen
India